Somebody I once knew.

Not much more I can say about that title, but I felt the need to blog this issue out as well. So don't worry if you think you are out of the loop on what I say. Just know I am just blogging it out.

I didn't really think time, change, or stupidity was something I dealt with all that well, but I could give my self a pat on the back for the way I recently handled a situation. I don't always do it with the best class or I don't always do it with the best attitude, but in this situation I rose up and handled everything like a champ. I conquered all three of those things. I dealt with time as if it was only a small fraction of the problem, and I dealt with change as if there was nothing I could do about it, and I dealt with stupidity by realizing I was better than that. I listened to the stupidity and I laughed but as I reflect on it, I personally think "WOW". I could add more words after that but I don't need too. This situation caused me to call one of my best friends and talk for an hour, sat on the floor talking to my room mate, and called my dad and heard his input, and most people who know me, know that I am an independent person. I usually can make my own decisions and act on them, but in this case I was calm and just needed to bounce the idea off peoples heads. I couldn't be more grateful for the time they took out of their day to listen to me. I think most of them told me that I had it all figured out. Im sure one of my really good friends looked at me all day yesterday and today feeling as if something was going on in my brain. But it wasn't. I was able to get on with my life and forget about this issue all together. Which I thank my faith and ultimately the people around me who support me.

So my moral of this post is listen to your self, sometimes you have the exact answers you need, you just need to slow down. I am still blown away by all this, as I acted completely different than I ever would of, and somehow I am happy with that. So I guess I get to say that time- you are really of the essence, and change- you can be the best thing or the worst thing, and stupidity- you ultimately reminded me of my self worth.

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I conquered these three things and I'm not looking back............ at least for now.

Besties!

Saying goodbye to a GREAT missionary!

Don't comment on how great we are looking, Kelsey and I had early morning class and this was not our shower day! haha (inside joke)

The Honorable Men in Black!

I think I am so overwhelmed with emotion right now that the best thing to do is blog it out. I watched this youtube video that had to do with missionaries coming home (I will post the link) and I watched these MEN who left as boys come down this escalator, they are dressed in black suits and they have the world at the bottom waiting for them. WHAT can be a better feeling for a mother than to stand there and watch their son come down the escalator and know that they just served a worthy full mission? I know that I had two amazing brothers in my life who served worthy missions and I remember standing there waiting for my brother Jim to walk into the airport. I was young, but I remember watching my whole family cry and hold on to him. I did experience this with my Grandparents as well, and I did have a ex-boyfriends serve a mission. So I have had a lot of the missionary experiences, but I would never change them for the world. This work is undeniable. I don't know anything else that is more selfless than giving up two years of their lives to serve the Lord. I know that I will strive each day to have that feeling as a mother and to ensure my son understands the important work that is to be done. I hope you take the second to watch the youtube clip. It will bring on emotion, much the same as when military men come home. If you know that the military men are out there supporting your country and you support them, please take in to consideration the men out there serving our All Mighty Lord.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQcSGVmXKNQ

I am so glad I have the opportunity to support the Missionaries and get to benefit from their undying dedication and undeniable spirit they bring. Keep up the work Elders. I loved having the opportunity to help one of my non-member friends come unto christ, and I am willing to continue to spread the word. It was the so rewarding for both of us and the feeling I got was indescribable. I hope I can help more find this happiness as well.

The Spirit & Goodbye!

So in my friends (k-dog's) blog, she posted about an amazing experience we had and I think that I will go ahead and let all my blog readers hear about how I felt during this time. We participated in a Church tour, which the Missionaries set up (and anyone who knows me, I love missionary work) So I decided that I would like to go on a tour and see what exactly they prepare. I brought along my friend (k-dog) who is also a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. We participated in walking through the church going to different rooms in the church and we learned about the apostasy, but the next room was the most spiritual room I have been in. We walked into a class room that had soft music playing in the back ground and had pictures of Jesus Christ on every chair that surrounded the room and and every wall and chalk board were covered with numerous pictures of Christ. There were pictures from his birth all the way to his resurrection and so forth. I was the first person to walk in to the room and as I stepped into the room I froze, everyone after me passed around me as I stood in AWE of the spirit in the room. In all four corners of the room they had round tables with multiple sets of scriptures opened and mark for you to read. As I stood in the center of the room and looked at all Christ has been through I began to cry quietly to myself. I sometimes or most times complain about little things in my life that drag me down and I begin to feel as if I cant take anything else. However, after I walked out of the church tour I remembered how blessed I am to understand that my problems are little in comparison. I am so thankful for my family who took the chance when they heard the true word of Christ and how that has continued to be a strong part of my family and my parents who raised me up in the church. I will never forget the amazing feeling I felt that day and how I appreciate the amazing work the Elders do. I am so glad that I am able to have them in my home to share a lesson and to feed them. They truly are elect men of god. K-dog and I did have to say goodbye to Elder Truman today and I know he will continue to bless others lives and those people will feel of his amazing spirit and love for his savior. His companion will continue to serve here in West Lethbridge YSA and we will continue to benefit from his dedication to the savior. Although goodbyes are always hard for me, I find it hard to say good bye to the amazing spirit which they bring. My testimony strengthens every time, and I love hearing about their investigators and making sure the are fed. I have contemplated serving a mission but as I ponder and pray on that idea I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be and as well as getting the blessing of missionary work by being available to help them teach non-members or setting them up with non-members. I also am working with out of my less active friends and I watched her receive a blessing and the spirit that was in that room brought us both tears. I would never pass up these amazing chances to participate in the Lords work and bring others the happiness that I have. The moral of my story is all those members out there who have Elders in your wards, you are lucky. Learn from them, and support them as they strive to carry out the Lords work. I personally could not tell you have my life has been blessed as I continue to be a tool for the Elders. Spread the love and the Lords words, someone out there is waiting.....................

Sleepless night!

I never thought my blog would come in handy, but with it being the easiest way to write down my thoughts, I think I will make an effort to update it more often!

So I'm in my last semester of nursing (can I get a whoop whoop) and have a lot of plans for my future! I'm excited for the days to come. I'm excited to start to earn money and stop living off the government and my parents, but what I'm more excited about is to move away and experience some more life! I love Lethbridge but it's a big world out there and I need to live it up. So I am looking forward to that!

Lots have happened in my life over the last while, I ran my first half marathon and I finished with so much energy! I love running it takes me far away from the current world and for the time I am running, I'm in my element! So I continue to keep up the healthy eating and of course have my heart set on another half marathon! (I will update you soon).

I sure miss my Nieces and Nephews and hope I can make a trip to see them all soon! Well it's a random post but it is an update!

It's been a long time.......

Funny when you have a life, how you forget out the blogging world. Okay, I don't have an exciting life, I have a busy day that happens 7 days a week and starts again without a day off. I think I have come to terms with the fact that I officially have to call this my life for the next 7 months and then I am free. I can't wait to be free, I need my friends, and my social life. My schedule revolves around my text books and it is pretty dang sad if you ask me.

So I guess lets catch up, I am in my last year of school, Nurse Channing is on her way. It has been such a awesome experience. I have wanted to quit this last year, but anyone who knows me knows I will show them who is boss. I put on my big girl panties and hit the books and decided I don't need a social life. I am so happy lately, something has changed in me. I have found a lot of happiness by searching for it and finally enjoying little things in life. I also found a person who is amazing, and really makes me laugh all the time. I mean not just a little ha ha, a full on throw my head back, laugh so hard I cant breath type of laugh. (I know you can all picture it). I am not implying anything, but I finally know what I have in my life and its so amazing to share it with someone who thinks the same.

I am not writing this to tell you I have a BF or that I am going to get married (Cause that is not true) but I am going to tell you that I found a best friend in a place that I thought I never would. Serving (and completed) a mission in this area over 8 months ago, and baptized my friend Chantel, and completed his mission and since he has been home we have talked constantly. Which is weird, cause lets be honest I just got done telling you I have no time for anything, but I do have time to talk to him. He pushes me, he makes me want to beat him in everything, he makes me want to be a better me, he dishes out compliments like it is his job, never lets me give him one with out giving one back. It just makes me smile to know that sharing the gospel brought him into my life, a act of service, brought me someone who I truly cherish. I got to see his dedication while he served, and I look back and I amazed.

I also with in my busy schedule signed up for two classes of institute and one of which is a marriage class (insert laugh here), but if i can be completely honest, it is AMAZING. There is a lot of things that are misunderstood or just plain old not understood that can been answered in this class. I attend it with one of my BESTIES- Kelsey. I love attending this class with her, she and I feed off each other and I know we have both taught each other a lot. Both in school and testimony. After all what do you rely on when everything else seems to be falling apart? I know who I turn to, not just in times of trials but in my times of happiness. I know at this point in my life the big M word is what I am supposed to be working for and I know this. I am not saying I know 10000 of men who want to marry me, but I needed to find out who I am, and I say that cause I put a lot into a relationship prior and lost it. So I needed to go on dates and date people in which I don't fall for but at-least I would be able to find out what I am looking for, cause how do you find it when you are completely lost. So this last year has helped me grow so much, and love who I am and I know I can do anything. I guess once you find it in you to believe in yourself, you will find others who believe in you too. Just have to get up and find out who you are and others will too.

A little quote I like to keep in my head is you will never find anyone who is a 100% right for you, you will find some one who will do. (this sounds like it is harsh,or that it doesn't believe in love, but read it again. it is true, no one is 100% made for you, there is always , "but they will do"). I found it hard to process at first but then I found out there is give and take (you cant like everything about the other person) and if I think the perfect man is coming along, I am wrong. I want the person who is my best friend, who knows what I am like at my worst, best, and stressed, this person can then sit down beside me and support me instead feeling like they have never seen this side of me.

Didn't mean for this post to be so long and unorganized but now at least you can have a little taste of what my head is like.

UPDATE: Scrubs, moving, and I can DRIVE!

So major update, I am in the middle of moving and I move in 15 days. I have a dinning room full of labeled, organized, color coded boxes. Okay, okay I didn't color code them but they are all organized. Chantel (roommate) recently bought a new house in Copperwood and for my last year of nursing I will rent a room from her. That way I don't have any ties at the end of the year when I graduate and I will be free to go to the states or where ever my heart desires. On to DRIVING, as of 12:00am on July 30th I was able to drive, but I worked a double shift last night, 16 straight hours, but did i mention double and a half time. So since I worked last night, I came home and slept and then headed down to pay the stupid reinstatement fee. After all was said and done I ran out of the office waving my license and doing a dance. I felt like I just got it for the first time. Now on to scrubs, I have or I guess had a huge scrub collection but due to recent events such as liposuction (kidding) I had to donate three garbage bags full. It was a sad time, but not as sad as fitting into sizes you didn't know existed. So I promised I would update the Blogger World, I know I am not dressed in normal clothes, but nothing really fits and I am off to the states for a week and I will be shopping like crazy. Which I don't think I will shop like crazy crazy because lets be honest I am not where I want to be, but a number is just a number its how we feel right?