Caution: thoughts that I needed to share!
Two questions, One: Have you ever noticed that people around you alter there lives to look perfect? I am not saying I dont do it, but I have noticed lately that some people find it necessary to completely lie to them selves to ( I guess) seem perfect to the world. I am not sure why this is happening to the extent that it is, everyones lives are different and we all know that we are not perfect, and although we strive to be, it is obvious when people try over board in this department. I am more or less needed to let who ever may read my blog know that its okay to make mistakes, its okay to have arguments, its okay for something to seem completely un-normal to the world but be normal to you. Its okay to have different styles, different views, and religions, but what it is not okay to do in my opinion is lie to yourself that completely changes the way you understand the purpose of making mistakes and learning from them. Making the same mistakes over and over is a direct reflect on your self.
Two: Do you remember any or just one of your friends that you would do anything for and yet to this day mean almost nothing to them? I am being very wise with my word choice, as i am sure everyone out there who is reading this will think it is them, but if you have a doubt then maybe there is some changing that needs to occur. Not saying in mine and your relationship but even outside relationships that you may have. I find it sad to know friends who seem not to care about you or your feelings. I know that I have in my life been this person, but for the most part I say how I feel and i don't allow anyone to alter my feelings or walk all over me, but in my past i have. I do think about this from time to time, cause if you asked me right now who would be my best friend in which I would want by my side during all the happy times and especially the bad, I could not tell you. That to me has caused me some hurt, but i have chosen not to dwell on that. As I have been taught to forgive and forget, but is it okay to feel like I have exceeded my quota in that department? I don't know if this is making sense or if you think that i am PMSing but regardless take a look at your friendships, which ones are worth the good fight and help you stand in holy places at all times.
This post is a reflection that happened on my drive back from calgary, it helped me realize that the people I allow in to my life will really impact my life and on that note I have to give a shout out. Number 1: To my sister Joni, for realizing that she is worth more than she will ever know. Number 2: To Chantel, for strengthening my testimony as she allowed me to join in her new journey in joining the LDS church! Number 3: To Kelsey, to someone who understands, and who listens. Number 4: to my dad, the person who can make a phone call into a conversation, and understands trials! I am completely am thankful and filled with love!
Thats all for now.
3 comments:
Well I love you! I think you're right people try to put up a front... I try hard not to.. I dont care if my hair isnt done, if my house is messy, if I take a ugly or silly picture, or if I get mad in front of whoever. If me and my husband are fighting then we're fighting and its ok, and if I'm not at church it's because I LIKE TO SLEEP! haha THIS IS ME LOVE IT OR HATE IT! haha... always there for you Chan Chan... kisses
i love you bunches as well cam cam.... I love that you are always there for me..... i miss you guys already and we need to have a date soon... please?
I always try to get my house really clean before someone comes over. The truth is it's usually scattered with toys and has dirty dishes in the sink. I panic when the doorbell rings unexpectedly because I'm worried someone we'll figure out my messy little secret (that I'm not a perfect housekeeper). So now you know, that's how I lie to make myself look better. I wish I could just say, "Who cares if they see my house look like it does!" Either that or just learn to keep my house tidy all the time. Ah well. . . we're all a work is progress I guess.
In other news: I LOVE YOU CHAN CHAN!!! We miss you so much, and we're so proud of all you're accomplishing! Hopefully we can hang out soon cause I could use some Aunty Tranny in my life right now. You have a way to lift my spirits in two seconds flat with your quirkly little ways.
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