Always there...........

A 25 Thank you's to my MOM!

1. Thank you for being a hard worker and giving me all that you could. 2. Thank you for letting me make a mistake or two. 3. Thank you for being my friend even when I was rude 4. Thank you for being you. 5. Thank you for giving the greatest family I could ever ask for. 6. Thank you for yelling at me when I skipped school. 7. Thank you for showing me how strong I could really be. 8. Thank you for supporting in everything I did. 9. Thank you for giving me that "freeze the room" scowl when I was out of line. 10. Thank you for allowing us to have an open relationship, which resulted in you knowing everything (sorry) 11. Thank you for giving me 90210 bangs when i was a child. 12. Thank you for dressing me in one piece outfits at the age of 6. 13. Thank you for playing and singing to rock and roll music on saturdays mornings. 14. Thank you for laughing when I cut my own hair twice, and never learned. 15. Thank you for giving me family vacations that will always be dear to my heart. 16. Thank you for letting my second home be Kalispell. 17. Thank you for always approving of my friends, even when you knew better. 18. Thank you for allowing me to buy a car at the age of 15. 19. Thank you for making me into a hard working, money making machine. 20. Thank you for teaching me my self worth. 21. Thank you for teaching me how to cry at a drop of a hat. 22. Thank you for being one person I can talk to everyday. 23. Thank you for being proud of me. 24. Thank you for showing me that I can do anything. 25. Most of all thank you for being there when i succeed, fail, laugh, or cry. Having a mom like you makes me the luckiest girl in the world.

I love you mom!

My blog, my thoughts!

Caution: thoughts that I needed to share!

Two questions, One: Have you ever noticed that people around you alter there lives to look perfect? I am not saying I dont do it, but I have noticed lately that some people find it necessary to completely lie to them selves to ( I guess) seem perfect to the world. I am not sure why this is happening to the extent that it is, everyones lives are different and we all know that we are not perfect, and although we strive to be, it is obvious when people try over board in this department. I am more or less needed to let who ever may read my blog know that its okay to make mistakes, its okay to have arguments, its okay for something to seem completely un-normal to the world but be normal to you. Its okay to have different styles, different views, and religions, but what it is not okay to do in my opinion is lie to yourself that completely changes the way you understand the purpose of making mistakes and learning from them. Making the same mistakes over and over is a direct reflect on your self.

Two: Do you remember any or just one of your friends that you would do anything for and yet to this day mean almost nothing to them? I am being very wise with my word choice, as i am sure everyone out there who is reading this will think it is them, but if you have a doubt then maybe there is some changing that needs to occur. Not saying in mine and your relationship but even outside relationships that you may have. I find it sad to know friends who seem not to care about you or your feelings. I know that I have in my life been this person, but for the most part I say how I feel and i don't allow anyone to alter my feelings or walk all over me, but in my past i have. I do think about this from time to time, cause if you asked me right now who would be my best friend in which I would want by my side during all the happy times and especially the bad, I could not tell you. That to me has caused me some hurt, but i have chosen not to dwell on that. As I have been taught to forgive and forget, but is it okay to feel like I have exceeded my quota in that department? I don't know if this is making sense or if you think that i am PMSing but regardless take a look at your friendships, which ones are worth the good fight and help you stand in holy places at all times.

This post is a reflection that happened on my drive back from calgary, it helped me realize that the people I allow in to my life will really impact my life and on that note I have to give a shout out. Number 1: To my sister Joni, for realizing that she is worth more than she will ever know. Number 2: To Chantel, for strengthening my testimony as she allowed me to join in her new journey in joining the LDS church! Number 3: To Kelsey, to someone who understands, and who listens. Number 4: to my dad, the person who can make a phone call into a conversation, and understands trials! I am completely am thankful and filled with love!

Thats all for now.